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05 September 2011 @ 08:27 pm
You know you all love hearing me whine about health issues  
You must all be so glad when you see a post from me these days. I can feel the excitement from here. I am so sorry this is all I talk about now. But seriously, I can't think about anything else when I feel so wretched.

I finished my law essay and went to class today. Class was okay because I was just sitting there. And I actually enjoyed being a loud-mouthed and opinionated pushy girl so that was nice. Then I had to go turn in my essay on the 6th floor of the history building. I didn't walk up the stairs because my knees can't take it, but I decided to walk down because I hate elevators and hey, we're still getting enough aftershocks that I filled my waterbottle up before I even got in the elevator to go up just in case one knocked the power out and I got stuck.

So I was walking down the stairs and I kept shaking. Mad, knee-knocking, entire body-trembling shaking. And it got gradually worse and worse as I went down. When I was on the third floor, I just burst into tears because I was shaking so badly. Strangely enough, my lecturer was returning to his office which is on the third floor so he whisked me in there and got me some tea while I sobbed on his desk about how I can't even walk down a flight of stairs. I finally managed to suck it up and head for the bus. During the ride Simon was kind enough to keep me distracted so I didn't sob the entire way home.

I napped for several hours and then ate tacos and lots of fruit. I still feel like hell. I think it's actually just one of those days I am stupidly overtired and my blood sugar isn't cooperating and there's nothing I can do about it. I have been eating all day to try to fix it. It tends to work itself out eventually but in the meantime I feel rotten inside. I seriously just ate a huge meal, a nectarine, a mandarin and a banana and I feel like I haven't eaten in days.

I hate my stupid body. (And I have to keep telling myself I am not dying because of my anxiety. SUCH FUN.)
Current Mood: crappycrappy
Lauren Christensenpretty_kozi on September 5th, 2011 10:52 am (UTC)
Ohhhhh Lara! Bloodsugars like to be dicks and strike when you least need it. Be careful! Hugs.

We need a club.
Künstliches Mädchen | ☘Lara Kelley Gallagher☘: Amanda Palmer~Hiding inside of meartemisofluna on September 5th, 2011 02:05 pm (UTC)
We do need a club. Augh.
Amandaspiffanda on September 5th, 2011 03:20 pm (UTC)
I don't mind your health posts. I would do the same. Plus it reminds me to say prayers for you.

Künstliches Mädchen | ☘Lara Kelley Gallagher☘: DL~Isabella Heart-shaped glassesartemisofluna on September 6th, 2011 03:47 am (UTC)
Aww, thank you for that.
athenarising on September 5th, 2011 06:30 pm (UTC)
Oh, honey. I feel so bad for you. THank goodness your lecturer was there for a rescue. Being sick like that is NO FUN.
Künstliches Mädchen | ☘Lara Kelley Gallagher☘: Amanda Palmer~With Heraartemisofluna on September 6th, 2011 03:48 am (UTC)
I feel a lot better today!