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05 March 2011 @ 11:52 am
Large aftershock just knocked out the power. It was only out for like...five minutes, but that was five minutes of me panicking that it was starting all over again. And it seemed to last a lot longer. I checked the water and that was fine (thank Christ, I really didn't do well without the water), and then my fan came back on and I felt this ridiculous sense of relief.

I don't like this. This doomsday feeling that my life is on pause. Though I read that the area where my placement is might be opening back up, since it's in the inner city cordon now, but they're decreasing the cordon tomorrow. And I think they mentioned the area where my placement is. That's good because it means I might be able to go back to placement. But it's bad because it means I might be able to go back to placement and I don't know if I'm ready. On my first day all Hell broke loose. Kind of literally. Though I will probably feel this way until it happens, so maybe the sooner the better. I have to tell you, this is making my 'spend a few years in the UK after graduating and then come back to NZ' plan look all kinds of nice, even though I don't want to leave my people :(

When I do go back, I will be terrified the entire time, and it is no longer because I feel I will do a bad job. I am so beyond that now. It's because I don't want the world to fall in on me.

In other news though, I'm about to go have a sandwich. And that's a tick in the 'Good Things' column! And my head is feeling a little clearer. Maybe I can write something today that isn't historical fiction. This would please me greatly.

Also, my cat is an agent of chaos. Just so you know.
Current Mood: awakeawake
Nathalfbloodme on March 4th, 2011 11:18 pm (UTC)
You moving to the UK means you and me finally meeting up and having crazy times!
Künstliches Mädchen | ☘Lara Kelley Gallagher☘: Photography~Sunny Converseartemisofluna on March 5th, 2011 12:37 am (UTC)
Nat: AT So fluffyhalfbloodme on March 5th, 2011 11:08 am (UTC)
Daisy: boobies - Lightnbird iconstreacleangel on March 5th, 2011 03:39 am (UTC)
That must have been awful! Ugh I now truly hate power outages. I never quite realised how dependant I am on power and light for a sense of security until we were sitting in the dark for an hour on Tuesday. I nearly cried with relief when the lights popped on.

I know the experts are saying that there are less aftershocks from this quake than september but it really doesn't feel like that. This feels so much worse. Perhaps its just my memory playing tricks on me. Also the fact the epicentre is so much closer. And that people died.

Your cat is an adorable agent of chaos. Also she is my Phillip. When I feel stressed (from reading too much earthquake stuff or looking at photos of the piles of rubble) I go look at the pics of her that you have put on facebook. So far you haven't got to the promised 200 ^_^

This website also helps me feel better and all happy squishy inside.
Circe: BSG: So less fragile when made of metal_honeyspider on March 5th, 2011 03:57 am (UTC)
Oh Zoo Borns. That site never fails to make me squishy either.
Künstliches Mädchen | ☘Lara Kelley Gallagher☘: DL Lavannah ~ Blower's Daughterartemisofluna on March 5th, 2011 04:02 am (UTC)
AWWWW! I think the fact that you look at pictures of Ariadne to make yourself feel better makes me happier than much of anything has! I love that! I shall put more up, I am sure I have some more :D And she is indeed adorable. She pushes stuff off my desk when she wants attention, the little cutie.

And yeah, having no power isn't good. I nearly cried when it came back on too. And when the water came back (all three times!) I think the aftershocks are less but they're boomier and I do not like them. They didn't bother me so much before. Not like this. Bleh.

Lauren Christensen: [Hyde] be my angelpretty_kozi on March 5th, 2011 06:09 am (UTC)
Künstliches Mädchen | ☘Lara Kelley Gallagher☘: Photography~Loneartemisofluna on March 5th, 2011 07:35 am (UTC)
Why thank you, lovely!
Lauren Christensen: [Naruto] stalkerpretty_kozi on March 5th, 2011 08:19 am (UTC)
I'll not let you fall apart! *snuggles and cuddles*
Künstliches Mädchen | ☘Lara Kelley Gallagher☘: DL~Giles demureartemisofluna on March 5th, 2011 08:45 am (UTC)
Good then :D
Jensie: Flailpotatoeangel on March 5th, 2011 09:50 am (UTC)
I am feeling the same way about starting my course again.
We are starting again on the 14th of March in out new tempory campus which will be a 10 minute walk from my house, which is great because it is so close to my house should anything go wrong, but I don't feel I am ready tp bei "normal" again when so much in the city isn't normal and won't be for a very long time. All I really feel like doing at the moment is just sitting and staring, usually at the telly or the computer. I just don't know how well LEARNING ALL THE THINGS is going to go.

Künstliches Mädchen | ☘Lara Kelley Gallagher☘: Amanda Palmer~DD Night is in the wayartemisofluna on March 6th, 2011 11:29 pm (UTC)
I am not getting notifs *kick*

And yeah, I bet you are too. Augh. I don't like this feeling. I'm panicky and ick. I am glad it's close to home for you! But yeah. I don't think I'm ready to be normal again either. No way. I kind of want to sit and stare too. Right there with you.

ajatajat on March 7th, 2011 01:56 am (UTC)
Aftershocks still continuing ? *HUGS* *Anxious and worried*
Künstliches Mädchen | ☘Lara Kelley Gallagher☘: Angel tubartemisofluna on March 8th, 2011 03:18 am (UTC)
They could go on for months.
Darth Paradox: Panicked Jagersdarthparadox on March 8th, 2011 12:56 am (UTC)
Holy hell, I can't believe they're still going on.

*hugs* Take care of yourself...
Künstliches Mädchen | ☘Lara Kelley Gallagher☘: DL~Dreamt of a Devil Judeartemisofluna on March 8th, 2011 03:19 am (UTC)
Apparently six months of aftershocks is normal. And thanks to this new one, they could go on another six months!